calm the hell down

that is the name of the playlist i have created on iTunes.

i am trying to calm the hell down, to remind myself it is all going to come together. this has been a relatively peaceful week. i am on vacation from one of my jobs, but i have so many. still, i have been reading - i am on my 4th book this week - and monday should be a day at the beach (literally). but the fact that i find myself in a state of semi-rest is evidence of exactly how badly i needed to STOP. between working like a mad woman at my day job, waiting tables at night, booking this insane tour for the fall, and getting the art, etc finished in order to get Little Films to the printers in order to get it back by September... no wonder everyone holds my bony wrists and rattles them about threateningly, telling me that if i don't gain a kilo or two i am going to be in big big trouble.

i love google. i am reading a book called "three junes" by julia glass, and there was a quote i wanted to share with you guys, but i don't have it handy and couldn't remember it, so i went to google and typed in "three junes" "julia glass" "fate" "yarn" and ECCOLA...here it is. truly amazing.

Anyhow, one of the characters is saying how she doesn't really believe in whims of fate. She says, "When it comes to life, we spin our own yarn, and where we end up is really, in fact, where we always intended to be."

And the opening to the book:

"Assuming that our energies are sufficient, love is interminable." - Jim Harrison

How trustworthy is energy? I have found myself without it lately. Yet days on the couch with good books and the possibility that one day very soon this album will be in the mail is the only thing that keeps me thinking that love might last. I have thought that before and been wrong - but then again , where we end up is really where we always intended to be.

love and sweet dreams,

vanessa

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music stuff:

tour this fall! 35 shows in 60 days in over 20 states...see the full calendar online if you dare! if you pre-ordered little films, i will soon have a way for you to listen to the whole darn thing, mastered and all. sounds fantastic.

okay, now, really, good night. :)